Pain is uncomfortable
Sooner or later, we must distinguish between what we are, not what we would like to be. The beauty is that there is always something new to discover. Imagine how sad it would be if there wasn't. I needed to know why I was here. I needed to show myself to be true, speak up and stand up for me. We don't have to run away from something, nor do we have to feel that heartaches, pain and struggle are the only ways for us to achieve the things we desire. But undoubtedly, faith, facing our truth and hard work really does pay off.
My heart took over my mind, body and soul. The very thing that I allow to reside in my heart, the thing I thought I so desperately needed and wanted at the most vulnerable time in my life, was the very thing that would've hurt and destroyed me. I had to let go on the clutter in my life to see what was right in front of me. I allowed myself to become distracted in my thinking and emotions. It nearly cost me from being my highest and best expansion of myself. My inner self, like a caged tiger, threatened to either burst out or literally waste away inside of me. I'm taking everything by force with the intentions of living my greatest moments. I knew deep within that God had something else in mind for me.
"See I am doing a new thang! now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.''
Isaiah 43:19 NIV
I can't put it into words, but something has changed in me. I'm on a new assignment and I'm slowly moving forward, one step at a time. It truly sucks that it took me so long to get here. I'm walking my own path, my own way. I know where I'm supposed to be. I never gave up hope.
Author Angela M. Thomas